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Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Anjali breaks herself free from the clutches of a deep slumber and starts weeping inconsolably, as if, a maniac.

Until last night, she had felt a pulsating life within her. With utmost care, she had nurtured him all through the nine months.

She was connected with the little one in her womb through the umbilical cord. They had lived one soul. 
But tonight her womb is deserted.

She can feel no kicks, no shudders, no movements and no thrusts from within. 

Anjali isn’t able to bear this and weeps inconsolably. Her sobbing reaches newer heights and AJ, her hubby rushes into the room in a state of panic and witnesses a maniac, Anjali.

He switches the lights on and hugs Anjali and shakes her so hysterically, so as to get her away from her trance-like-state.



With severe shakings, Anjali, regains her posture and clings on to AJ.  Unable to explain, she takes his palm and holds on her stomach to reflect the hollowness in her womb.

AJ realizes Anjali's deep hidden fear.

He whispers into her ear "My love! Do not panic. You have delivered a healthy baby boy this afternoon @ around 2.19 PM.”

“You will wake the little one up if you weep so loud. He is sleeping tight in the cradle” and points to the cradle besides her bed.

Hearing these soothing and reassuring words from AJ, Anjali gently opens her eyes to witness, Lil Vivaan lying in the cradle and sucking onto his thumb.

Lil Vivaan, the beacon of their life. 

As Anjali notices healthy Lil Vivaan, her sobbing transforms into a smile.  She sighs in relief, holds a smile and leans on AJ's  shoulders.

AJ sends a silent prayer to the almighty in gratitude. 

All is well that ends well.

Image Courtesy: google   © 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)

Thursday, May 21, 2015



Grandma,
Where are you at?
Where did you fade away
whilst, I was away for work?
I am eager to catch up,
for all the lost times.

I yearn for those evenings,
those heart-to-heart dialogues,
and  
the unraveling
complications.

Those tender emotions,
assured 
your motherly affection 
for me.

The sparkle of your eyes,  
your welcoming smile,
still lingers on.




 You calling out my name
still echoes within,
Am longing to hear you out
One more time,
 one last time..

Will this wish be granted..?

The waterspout, the roar,
the lightening,
Is the weather out there,
in harmony with my spirit?

Are these the manifestations
Of  my turbulent mind?

Am tired.
I am so lost.
All I can see is blurred.
I wanna rest on your lap,
gaze at your smiling face,
to soothe my troubled mind.

Take me along with,
Oh, Grandma,
To your abode
Where I can
Rest-in-peace.







© 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)    Image courtesy: AJ's  personal photo collections.


Saturday, May 16, 2015

They say that the eyes are the mirror to one’s  soul.  Yet,  there are people, who can brilliantly mask their emotions.

The below lines were written for my birthday when I sat pensive.  A self-dedication on my birthday, which falls on 17th May.

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Another Birthday?

Oh! Monkey mind,
Should you be happy
Or, saddened?

The question
 too stark
Nudging your face now.

Right from birth
Wings chopped
And Clipped,
An unknown fear
Instilled within, ever since!

Your soul feels bruised
From time immemorial,
With  haunting penury
Ridicule, and abuse.

No gifts, no balloons,
Ugh! Luxurious, the days
Of cakes and movies.

 Depressed Mind,
Lonely self and
Suicidal thoughts,
The comrades.

Fake faces and
Venomous smile
A daily scene.

Ah, You're an introvert,
They say!

Hey, you!
Look into his eyes,
can you see the crack?




Guess now,


Is he, jubilant or bereaved?



© 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)  



This poem is published on Writer’s Ezine, an e-magazine, for their special edition of September 2015.   http://www.writersezine.com/2015/09/the-crack.html



September marks the completion of 18 months of Writers Ezine.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Appale Rayya, (Dad's Prince)

At this wee hour of the night, as I write this letter, you have turned  9 months and 17 days old. You have completed more number of days outside, than in your mom’s womb.

I wanted to spill my thoughts and emotions to you. Unfortunately, you are too young to even read these complicated emotions.


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                    I woke up frantic this morning as I heard you pull in that naughty, unique noise through your tiny nostril as you stood by the bedside, all solo.

I was concerned with the thought of you hitting down. For, you have still not begun to stand and balance all by yourself.

As I spread out my eyes, I caught you standing by the bedside and deliberately making that (cute) noise to wake me up from my deep slumber. Though you haven’t started to talk,  your methods of communication are par excellence compared to any and that amazes me.

The toothless smile of yours, this morning reminded me of Lord Shri Krishna and his playful acts as a toddler, which made him the favorite of all.  

You must know, You are my Kaanha – The Lil Krishna.

(Later on a stressful day, your smile rejuvenates me.)

I was on cloud nine when I was informed by my Ma, that,  you pointed my jeans, hung in the cupboard and exclaimed "Pa".

You gave me such an adorable title "Pa". Each time you stutter and call out “PA”, my heart pounds.

(Pa - means Father. Father the giver of life.  Ishaan, my son, in our case, you are the life giver to me. You have added meaning to my otherwise hollow Life. )

Oh Ishaan, How do I let you experience my emotions for you?

 I am so absorbed in the tide of those emotions, as I compose this letter to you.

I was ecstatic when you enveloped me and clung around me as I was about to leave.

Oh, apple of my eye, first time ever after my negligible existence in this universe, I felt that I am wanted.  You are the only cause for such an amazing feeling.

I realized the  Purpose of my life.

Ishaan, my infant son, I have left a kiss along your brow.

You are a blessing to an otherwise deserted life of mine.

Someday, you must read this letter and know that your Pa loves(d ) you than himself.

Pa - Only Yours.

Date - 12th May 2015.




Copyright @ Ajay Pai 2015
Image Courtesy: AJ's personal archive

Monday, May 11, 2015



Dark, fair or wheatish skin
Adam, Eve our ancestors
Why favor or hate?



The prompt word is "Fair".

© 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)                  Linked to Haiku Horizons           PS: Image courtesy Google

Saturday, May 9, 2015



Yesterday, a pretty looking lady in mid 50’s, approached me at the office. 

Elegantly draped in a Mangoish Yellow silk saree with a broad green border, she stood in front of me as if,  she was a goddess. 

Vermillion on her forehead was as mesmerizing as the evening Sun.

What an aura she had!   Our eyes locked, instantaneously.

But, she held a lifeless smile.  

Her eyes spoke a zillion words. She had masked the vacuum in her eyes, with a thick line of Kohl.

She passed over an envelope to me as she reached my desk.  I spread out the envelope to scan the printed official letter as a 
“Death Certificate”. 

I sat speechless and pale at my office desk.  My hands trembled as I accepted the death certificate from her.  

I made her an acknowledgment copy and replied: “Mam, it will require 15 days for processing the death claim.”

Tears rolled freely down her cheeks.  

I heard her Womb scream, howl and wail.  It was Mother’s Day the following day. 

             

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PS: The above narrative is a real life incident and is written for Prompt of the Month; a feature of Writer's Ezine

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Thursday, May 7, 2015



Dad's arm or mom's lap
Be two different time zones
Love the thread that binds







© 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)  

Linked to ABC Wednesday Round 16

Wednesday, May 6, 2015



The dusky and grey haired
Illumine, focus and framed
toddler gaze away







© 2015 Ajay Pai (Reserved)

Tuesday, May 5, 2015



Green turf green garden
Grasshoppers and lady bee
Water! source of life





PS: Image courtesy Google

Monday, May 4, 2015

I am, the Soul.

I am born free,
With no boundaries set.

Empowered to Roam and Wander,
The whole cosmos my home.
I am born free,
With no enclosures around.


Alas!
Oh, Mortal!
Do you see me?
Fathom, what you’ve done!

I Am Chained,
My freedom Curbed,
My aura lost,
My Soul bruised.

I breathe,
Only to be conscious,
 to set the soul free,
Some day...

Day, never at the horizon.



PS: Image Courtesy Social Media - Facebook.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Tiny lips quiver,
Lil heart shudders,
Petrified arms search for
Solace, in you.


Be brave! Lil one.
For your savior
Is Nigh.
Enveloping Thee,
From every menace.


PS: Image courtesy Social Media

Friday, May 1, 2015




Life a strange bubble
Keep short the ego and pride
The froth of Life cracks





PS: Image courtesy Google

Linked to Haiku Horizons

Thursday, April 30, 2015



Being calm and poised
Amidst the most tragic sphere
Strong will to survive!










PS: Image courtesy Google

Wednesday, April 29, 2015



Ma mama, mommy
My eyes search in the debris
stony silence echoes





PS: Image Courtesy Social Media.

Sunday, April 26, 2015


Shivers and tremors
Dreams shatter, loved ones depart
Nature's fury stares


Rubble, carcass remains
Mother nature sways alike
Brawl of death lingers




Tears trickle down low
None to wipe and console Thee
Hope at distant orbit.





PS: Image courtesy Google.



Friday, April 24, 2015



Dethroned, freedom lost
Deadlines for and targets set
Emotions, eyes clash




PS: Image courtesy Google.

Tuesday, April 21, 2015


Sarla, aged 12 was brought up as a free bird, without any restrictions, though born into a community where a girl child is fastened with umpteen  limitations.

(Limitations in the way how she should - walk, talk, place her hair, modulate her tone of speech,   gaze at people etc.)

Sarla, lives with her grandmother in Kerala, as her parents are away for their livelihood.

As a custom, every morning, Sarla along with her grandmother, visits a nearby Shiva temple for offering their morning prayer.

Conversation between Granny and Sarla on one such fine day:

Sarla :        “Granny, hurry up. It’s time for the Aarti at the temple, and I need to offer my prayers to Lord Shiva for securing scores higher than Vishal in my maths exam.”

Granny:     “Sarla, my baby girl, I am suffering from high temperature and have not taken a shower. So, Granny will not be accompanying you today to the temple. You have to visit Lord Shiva unaccompanied by me. However, do pray for your beloved granny and rush back home fast.”

“Do not talk to any strangers and be very watchful on that deserted narrow road through the fields, which leads to the temple entrance”. (Granny’s voice has a concerned tone now).




“Ok, I shall go by myself and will not talk to strangers. Granny, don't you worry. I can take care of myself!.”

Nodding her head in agreement to her granny's advice, Sarla rushes to the temple, hopping, with a little bag on her shoulder, which has flowers and incense sticks as offerings to Lord Shiva.

Sarla has worn a silk white skirt and a pretty embroidered white blouse. Her  long hair is braided beautifully with a red rose pinned in the middle.

Sarla has to cross a scenic green field, which takes her to the temple entrance.
As Sarla crosses the deserted green field, she looks around her with amazement.





“Looks like it’s a special day today. The nature is at its full bloom.” 

“Ah! Nature looks so gorgeous. Is it all because of me?” “It looks like the lady nature is welcoming me.”  She says in amazement.

She watches a bunch of butterflies circling around the blooms which are about to flower. 




The flowers happily sway in the field as the wind passes through. She sees leafless trees coming to life with naïve leaves on it.

“Aha! How beautiful and comforting, a sight is that!”. Sarla in her amazement exclaims joyfully,  witnessing the way of mother nature.

Birds are chirping in their sweetest tone ever. The wind soothingly fondles Sarla as if it is caressing her.

This is the first time, Sarla noticing mother nature in such little proximity. 

“What is so special today? Let me reach home and then I will ask Granny.” Her young heart pounds.

At the same time, Granny is worried, as Sarla hasn’t reached home as yet. The medicines have its effect. Granny slowly glides into a nap.

Aaah, Grannieee! Um..Hmm…eeee!  A cry awakens the granny from her nap.

She jumps out from her nap and rushes to the front yard.

She sees Sarla standing and sobbing. A shiver ran through the granny’s spine as she sees blood stains on Sarla's silky white  skirt.  Though initially shocked, granny regains her posture, embraces her little granddaughter and takes her in for a shower.

Later in the evening, Sarla asks her grandma, “Grandma, why the blood? Am I sick?”

“No my sweetie. Did you notice there in the fields? Did you see the flowers bloom, and the  butterflies hopping from one flower to the other. The season has changed. Right?. 

Likewise, from a little girl, you have blossomed into a beautiful young lady today.” saying thus, she pecks on Sarla's forehead.

And Granny continues “Now during these days you should not wander around too much. You should stay at home and should not visit the holy temple as you are unclean”.

"Unclean?" Huh!  “But granny can you please clarify me something”, scratching her scalp, Sarla probes further in a very pleasing manner.

“Ask me, my baby girl”, the gray-haired granny lovingly runs her fingers through Sarla’s hair and waits for her to ask the question.

“You say that I should not  enter the temple as I am unclean.  But then Lord Shiva himself is “ardhanareeshwar", so do God undergo these periods?”




Innocence is personified in her question.

“Hmm. Good question, Sarla.” says the granny. But her tone made it very clear that the granny isn’t pleased with Sarla’s question.

Oblivious of the tides of expression on the granny’s face, Sarla continues...

“Again, today in the temple, I have noticed, the senior priest accepting the fees for the Pooja, standing in the Sanctum-Sanctorum. The notes were so filthy and were foul.  I am sure that the notes have travelled its way through the fish and meat market as I saw the blood is smeared on it.  Then how can it be touched by the priest? The notes too are unclean, isn’t it? Are the rules different, for the priest and me?”.

Granny stares at Sarla with a poker face.

Sarla continues “Granny, you have always taught me, that we visit the temple to cleanse our thoughts, right? Also, you have imbibed in me, that every human body is a temple and God lives within.  So how can the body be unclean if God lives within the body?”.

Hearing this, Granny, whose face is tense with anxiety and anger loosens with love and tenderness. She is impressed with the brilliance of Sarla.

She grabs Lil Sarla, kisses on her forehead and whispers into her ears, pulling her long braided hair...


“Sarla, my Lil one, do not talk like an adult. However, this silly Granny is in agreement with your broad thoughts.” " I just wish that people had a broader and a logical mindset on such issues."